Thursday, June 19, 2014

Korea 3.0

Officially back in korea. This is my last try with my birth family search. In jeju-do currently, but fly to seoul tomorrow morning.  Literally crossing everything I've ever wanted to do and see in korea off my list with this trip!!!

Friday, January 31, 2014

Take 3

I haven't posted on here for awhile now. Since my last trip to Korea back in august of 2011, I felt there wasn't a lot more I could do in ways to search for my birth family. 

Since then I focused on finishing grad school and starting my career. Also, this past year I was a board member for the Association if Korean Adoptees in San Francisco. It was a lot of work helping to get the group up and running again. But fun being an active member in the adoption community again. 

Although I stepped down from the board, my twin sister and I have turned back to our own personal family search. This time being a part of Me and Korea. We'll be headed back to Korea this coming June with 18 other adoptees across the country as we learn more about birth mothers, home stays, teaching English to kids, and our own personal searches again. 

I'm excited to head back to my homeland. 2014 is already a great year, this will just add to it. Who knows, maybe this will be the year I find my birth family. 

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

Forgiveness

I ranted and raved on here about how my mother reacted during my first trip to Korea. She said some things that really offended me.

But as I get older I realized that I should forgive her for her words. She didn't lash out to hurt me, she was just out of her comfort zone, and I wasn't there to help her through it. What she said doesn't bother me anymore, I don't know when it happened. I just realized it's not important. We all say things we don't mean at some point in our lives.



Forgiveness is the way
to forgive is devine
so let's have a glass of wine

Anyone see this movie? Just Friends. I love this movie, so funny. 


Wednesday, March 27, 2013

Moving forwards

I haven't been posting very much these days. I originally started this blog to help record my search and to hopefully help others along the way. But as things progressed, it just became an outlet for me to rant and rave. So I pulled away. I'm generally a very negative person to begin with, but I don't want to be anymore, so I've been trying to get my life in order, and figure out what I want, how to get it, and how to see the positive.

With the help from my sister and my boyfriend, I'm trying to be more open with my feelings, swear less, and to stop worrying so much about things that I can't control.

I also recently have taken an active roll in my adoption again. But rather then focusing on the search, I'm trying to build a positive connection with other adoptees. I'm volunteering as a board member for the Association of Korean Adoptees - San Francisco (AKA-SF). Helping to rebuild that community within the Bay Area is giving me a sense of connection, become a part of something positive. More to come on this subject as the group moves forward.

So I'm going to take up writing in this blog again. But try to steer it in a more positive light. I do believe writing helps a persons mental health. And I think after some time, it'll help mine as well.


Sunday, August 5, 2012

Adoption for citizenship

So I met a guy the other day who was also adopted from Korea. Him and his parents decided to put him up for adoption at age 6 so he could gain US citizenship easier. Hmmm, interesting. Not sure what to think of that one...

Friday, June 22, 2012

Ignorance

So I met this guy and was hanging out with him, my twin sis and another friend. We were all joking around. Someone jokingly said, 'aww u bastard!' To him. His response: 'I'm not a bastard because I know my parents.'

Ouch. That one hurt. And yes he knew my sis and I are adopted. And no, he didn't realize what he said til I called his ass out. But to give him the benefit of he doubt, he didn't say it on purpose to be mean. But in the end the damage had been done.

Le sigh.

Thursday, May 17, 2012

Ugly Duckling

When I was a child, all I wanted to be was White. So I would fit in, be just like everyone else.

Now that I'm an adult, I want my parents to be Asian. So I would fit in and look like a part of my family.

One's never satisfied...

I have always been embarrassed about being adopted. Always uncomfortable in my own skin. I thought learning about my heritage, culture, etc would help change all that. My friends are Asian, mostly Korean. Yet I feel more out of my comfort zone now then ever before. What's a girl to do...

...to be continued